I can't blame anyone for leaving me behind and keeping going, because I understand that's what people do when they have the false hope, the delusional expectation that the whole thing could still be great. Besides, I did it first, I decided. I could never stay and be "good"; I could foresee all the avoidable hurts and the temptation to turn bad. No matter where I were, it'd still be the wicked and adulterous generation.
You shouldn't doubt your own decision, looking back to see how far away I've come.
I don't, that if you have no Good, no outcome and income will ever be a sign of luck.
The whole lot of us knows that.
